<0> . Memory-giving
I used to recognize my existence and being, when I perform giving gifts especially which have a non-material value. Therefore I began to work on giving and exchanging my works with people. Also, I am interested in realizing "relationships" among people, invisible values and social interstice, which is regarded common but not feasible. What I wanted to give through these works/projects were time, devotion and attention and I tried to make people recall the values we might already lost. To specify, I have been working on values so called time.
Meanwhile, I was confused about what I call time and space. Actually they are staying as it is, what changes is our perception toward time and space. Through finding valuable meanings in time and space I want to create and share "memories" with participants of my work. I have made an assumption that people record their everyday life, and "the recording" can be divided into two portions, which are ordinary records and memories. Ordinary records and memories both are composed of perception of time, perception of space and state of mind. Even though they are both composed of identical components, conditions of their constituents are quite different. Ordinary records are unintentionally stored in our archive without consciousness, but memories are stored with value-added time, space and individually differing 'state of mind' which has an effect on the perception of time and space.
What are the valuable memories for people? I think the memory required for out of consciousness/unconscious to be alive. I could keep thinking about death as well. People frequently say that "life will flash in front of my eyes at the moment I die". What memories would we want to recall on the verge of death? I believe life and death are inextricably bonded up to each other. In my point of view, the “death” means the state that people can't produce or remember the memory themselves anymore. If it is so, I wonder what people would want to recall when they die. Whenever I feel near death, "the memories" let me be alive. My mother used to tell me to see the stars in the sky when I am confused with reasons for living. "the memories" are as beautiful as "stars". I have been trying to find the ideal method for creating this kind of "memories". As a result I came up with two primary methods, which are "multi-media", and "spontaneous(voluntary) participation".
<1> . Using Multi-media
As it is mentioned above, time stays as it is. The only changing things are our perception. Then, how do we perceive "time"? "Time perception" refers realizing subjectively regardless of measured physical means, such as the length or elapse of time. As there are eyes to see, ears to hear, there are specific sensory organs respectively for each senses. But there is no sensory organ to feel the time.
Recognition of time seems to be driven by the action overall sense of many organs. An hour spent for fun games and a hour listening to boring speeches are significantly different, usually you perceive time as more fast when what you are extremely engrossed in a certain work. But, when you look back on the past experience at a later date, more quality time and vice versa will be felt for a long time.
I assume that everyone has a determined amount of what you can sense in a certain moment, in general. As our sensory organs are stimulated continuously in everyday life, it repeatedly satisfies the amount of sensation and filled up again. But it takes relatively longer time to be filled when performing an boring activity because the intention of the person weakens and the feelings of senses become dull. Conversely, when someone do the thing on one's own account, the amount of sensation is filled with a new stimulus of multiple senses will be shortened. This whole process will make the individual time perception. Also, I imagine this repeated procedure is unstable, which fluctuates in terms of speed, which creates rhythm and strength. This rhythm and strength could be regarded as emotions. However, even if evoking multiple senses, it may not make emotion if it is not an important factor for people.
<2> . Spontaneous Participation
Then, what is "memorable memories"? Does these memories give us energy to live and what we want to remember at the last? I want to give people "the memories" which can be salutary for them.
I am planning a gathering with Korean participants on a cold day in winter. The participants and I will borrow lights(e.g lamps) from neighborhood and get together. The materials for this work are visual imagination, courage(or temerity) of host, and participation's volition. The cold weather and getting a cold shoulder might be some catalyst. Though it is not a preposterous happening, it will definitely not be easy. Because we are strangers. However, we can be satisfied with and chance it.
<#> . Relationship
Furthermore, I have considered about the roles of people's relationship in the project. I don't think we can share same memories with each other. For me, communicating with people about certain time, space and emotion is sharing. When we get a certain time and space to do same project, we can make layers with individual memories. As they overlap, the memories would turn vivid again. Since normally our memories are being worn off as time goes by, it is very important to remind ours to keep good memories. In that sense, "relationship" is more meaningful. I am finding a way to stimulus and keep these memories better. Also, I am trying to find a meaning about interaction between the participants and the lamp-borrowers.
Thus, I will keep planning projects concerning "time", "space" and "state of mind" to evoke people's "memories" and consider more how can "relationship" affect participants' individual memories. Also, I want to research the relationship between participants in my works and the audiences later on.